Since you’re a cat and I’m a human being, it seemed strange at first when visitors said that we looked alike. Still, it happened several times that they studied our blue eyes and fair complexions and then blurted out, “It’s obvious that you are family!” Jokingly, of course, but with a touch of seriousness.
And now, we have yet another thing in common…
I don’t think I ever told you, but as a young man, I left relationships a few times when I feared that my girlfriend was more interested in another boy. Heartbroken, I quietly sneaked out the back door, grumbling, “I knew that this would happen.”
Who would have guessed that you one day would react in the same way?
I confess that I was enthralled when she, being just the size of my shoe, was playing war. It was priceless to watch the way she was hiding and attacking, trying to look big and scary while skipping sideways on all fours. I was charmed by her wide open, innocent eyes, her ridiculously oversized ears, and her cute little tail.
I was so focused on her that I didn’t notice that you were watching us from a distance, feeling left out, neglected and abandoned.
I should have invited you in.
Next morning, when I couldn’t find you, I remembered and understood. I wanted to tell you that I never intended to replace you with her. Neither for her youth and attraction, nor as a punishment for what happened to my rattan chairs. You will always belong in my heart!
Did I ever tell you how I found your name? When you came to my house, I was reading Stranger in a Strange Land by the science fiction writer Robert Heinlein. The book is about a fascinating man who comes from the planet Mars to Earth. He introduces the philosophy of the word “grok,” which has many symbolic meanings, such as, “to merge,” “to join,” “to become one.”
From the moment I first saw you, I knew that “Grok” was your name.
Please come back home, Grok!